Let’s do something original.
I’ve been writing and deleting (and writing and deleting and writing and deleting…) an introduction for you to quickly catch up with what I’ve been doing for the last months, before I start blogging about some specific subjects I have in my mind for the upcoming posts.
But there is really no quick way of telling you everything.
So instead of telling you what I’ve done, I’ve decided I’m going to give you a list of what I’ve learned.
Things I’ve learned in the last 7 months, a.k.a. my newly found laws of existence (I needed a cool name):
1. I’ve recently learned an important lesson: That it is possible to do things with fear. Your knees may be shaking, your palms may be sweaty, you might stutter, turn red, cry, but fear cannot hold you back. And in not letting it hold you back, you will become less afraid.
2. Perseverance is rewarding. And apparently, I have a lot of that.
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4. I’ve learned to be a little less of a perfeksionist. And in doing so, I’ve made it easier for myself to be productive and finish tasks with less stress (suggested exercise: make mistakes on purpose). Not unimportant: I also enjoy activities more than I used to, thanks to the lack of constant pressure to be and do better.
5. I’ve learned to channel my emotions in a much healthier way and although I am not done learning just yet, I am absolutely convinced now that borderline is manageable, if not curable, whereas I would never have dared to think it possible some time ago.
6. Apparently, I like to paint.
7. “I have an infinite amount of tasks in a finite amount of time.” Is my own personalized alteration of Zeno’s Dichotomy paradox, based on my tendency to want to learn everything about everything with not enough life span to possibly be able to (and I am still determined to do it… referring to law number 2).
8. I learned I can be made childishly happy with simple things: Pie. Comics. Science. Books. Oh and board games, def board games. And even more I’ve learned the importance of making myself happy with these little things.
9. Everything is relative. And this time, I’m not referring to science. I’ve found that people’s opinions, about yourself or anything else for that matter, are not set in stone. We all have our observations and we are all allowed to have them. However, none of it is the absolute truth. A direct (translated) quote from my diary: “There is not just one way to look at things. That said, it’s not weird either to create your own truth. There is not just one way. And so nobody is ever really wrong. You can never say anything about that.” The thought of that has helped me a lot in forming my own opinion and finding my own way, regardless of what other people say.
10. I am not awful. I keep discovering that people actually like and appreciate what I have to say, although I’ve spent a long time thinking that wouldn’t be possible. Which also means that my own opinion is only relative and not necessarily true. And this has brought me some actual confidence to open up and take up space. From all the things I’ve learned, this is the one I am the most grateful for.
11. Acceptance. To accept the things I’m feeling, however ‘inconvenient’ it may seem. Accept things that are, even if it’s not what I’ve aimed for. To accept the time I need and the point I’m at. To listen to my own feelings and act upon those, not even needing to justify everything.
There is so much more that I’ve learned and so much more stories I’d like to share.
I am truly content with my life right now, which is all new for me. Being at this point right now, is more than I could have imagined or hoped for. I owe it to a variety of things, among which: My therapy, perseverance and a lot of hard work and reflection. And now I just want to bring you in on the things that have helped me so much. Which is exactly what I’m planning to do and for which I am going to take the necessary time and space, hopefully while illustrating my ‘laws’ a little bit more.
So please stay tuned for my upcoming posts. The plan is to mainly start explaining my kind of therapy to you, using a few models that I think everyone should be aware of, because it clarifies human behavior so so much. In between I’m going to write about a few random, lighter subjects, just to keep the balance. But I think those will be just as interesting for you guys.
So thank you all for reading, hope you liked it, and you’ll hear from me soon.